You can have me all you want, any way, any day
This was the first time that I have gone on a date. We met online, and were excited to see each other after messaging back and forth. A standard date format: a movie, followed by dinner, and some dancing. When I first approached you, you seemed not too excited, but you said that you were tired. The first impression didn't bother me, even the awkward moments couldn't make me second guess about our date. It was only when we sat down then we got comfortable. Once in our seats, we were slowly getting close to each other, holding hands, each other, and eventually moving in for our first kiss. It didn't really matter how the movie went (I thought it was bad), we were too distracted by our own company. After the movie, we walked around town and found a quiet place to sit. I remembered how we sat on an art installation and started swapping mints - who knew ice could be so hot. We even made a collage of us on our first date... Nothing like that PDA. Not really sure what happened in-between before you met my cousin that night, but it was a memorable night. We danced the night away, and it was amazing how we were not tired of each other by that point. My cousin was saying how smitten I was by you; and I was. My favourite part of it all was discovering our photos on the club's website - oh, memories.
Months went by, and every day seemed to go so fast. There were times where we would be away from each other for a while, but not a day passed by when I was thinking about you. I even got you a few souvenirs while on vacation, little things to let you know that you were on my mind. From hanging out to your place, to walking around that mall, spending time with you was fun - maybe not so much for the people around us, but we had no care whatsoever. The kissing could have been toned down, but you can't help yourself when you're with someone that makes you so happy. I loved the confidence that you carried, and how much you adored fashion. You didn't care that you were trying on heels, you were infatuated with the styles and walked gracefully around the store. Although you didn't like the outfit I made you try on later at another store, I thought you wore it well. There's nothing like someone who can fashion self-love so fluidly; that's one of the things that made me so fond about you.
Young and in love we were, yet we didn't really get that far. Being new to the dating scene, I found myself messaging other people and wanting to go out with other people after a few months being together. Nothing was wrong, but I kept on being curiouser and curiouser... maybe that's one of the toils of browsing online while dating. The next time we watched a movie, you just wanted to kiss; I just wanted to know how the storyline developed. And when I got submitted into the hospital, I was hoping to see you. You messaged how you were going to make a visit, but that never happened. Family and friends stopped by, but no sign of you. Perhaps it was best to part this way, I didn't worry much about you after I got out of the hospital. Know that I wasn't disappointed or saddened, it was probably the easiest way to move on. Days went by, and sooner or later, we stayed out of touch.
Little did I know how much of a party animal you are, and that we would share some mutual friends. Although I never got into Raves and EDM, it was nice to see you again at house parties. The conversation may be a little awkward, but it goes to show that we haven't changed that much. You enjoy that energy, and I appreciate how you live for that scene. Perhaps if it's not too awkward, we can Rave one time - just take it slow with me. Remember to always be yourself, and you'll find that people will love you just the way you are. Times may seem hard when it comes to relationships - we just got to make that effort. No need to worry, we will find someone who compliments us, as we are amazing just as is. So to the style, let's get out there, slay that runway, and let love in.
Sincerely,
The Radiant
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